San Mateo

it's a place where friends could hang out
some would cook

clean

arrange stuff

buy beer

buy food

buy rice

buy drinks

bring the radio

feel at home

relax from everything else

stay overnight

make more friends

find peace from all the chaos

and where you could smoke your lungs out if ever you do smoke

also, you could learn alot from there

like a having a retreat. but with beers and stuff




everything is good

A T T E N T I O N :

San Mateo Season 7
September 3, 2005
Saturday

sabi ni Patch

W O H O O O !

something's wrong,

i always feel tired and down.

something's missing,

i can't seem to find what.

i laugh at jokes but that's as far as it goes. after that, same sad o'l me.

shit..

i'm lost

i think dementors are trying to eat me

sinundo ko ulit si Joey sa UST,
mansari namin. So naisipan ko naman bisitahin sya kasi hindi na kami nagkikita masyado.
AYLABYUSOMATSBEYBEH!

ayun, naglaro nanaman ako ng six hours
pero ngayon kasama ko si Von maglaro

tinanong ko si Von kung gusto nya rin maglaro ng six hours para makasabay na rin ako sa kanya. Mabuting sya nalang bigyan ko ng pera kesa sa taxi driver. Kay Von kasi fixed na yung presyo eh. Hehe.

so ayun, tinanong ko kung gusto nya ako sabayan hanggang eleven tapos binigyan nya ako ng pak-yu sign na magkadikit para eleven ang lumabas. Pero maglalaro pa rin pala sya.

tapos nung nandun na kami sa counter, tinanong nya kung magsisiks hours daw ako, oo naman ako kasi yun yung pang-ubos ng oras ko eh. Tapos nung magbabayad na ako, (pag siks hours, bayad kagad) bigla nag-abot na rin sya ng wanhandred;

Von: Bos, dalawang six hours.

hehe. Nagkaron na ako ng kasama sa aking paghihintay. Astig.

ayun, una, nag-dota kami, tapos medyo nagsawa na kami kasi wala kaming makalaro, nasindak ata sa mad skills namin eh. Hahaha! ayaw kaming isali. Tsk tsk.

The word LOSER spelled itself in my head again.
si Von nag si-sign pa ng "L" sa aming dalawa. Hahaha!

so ayun, naglaro kami ng battlefield. Yung una na version. Medyo nagpapakagago kami sa mga ginagawa namin eh. Ginawa naming gunbound yung battle field. Magmimeet kami sa isang lugar sa map tapos labanan ng tank ng malayuan, so medyo may mga angle-angle pa kaming ginagawa. Pagkatapos nun naisipan namin maghanap ng malalaro na scenario sa Warcraft, may nakita kami, Footmen Frenzy. So sinubukan namin.

tawa kami ng tawa habang naglalaro kasi hindi namin inakala na ang gulo at ang saya ng laro. pwede sya for 3 vs. 3 vs. 3 vs. 3. ang gulo no? so pwede na twelve kayo dun.

at pwede na yung red na color ng team nyo. ang saya saya!

sobrang riot nung laro. as in sobrang riot! sa sobrang pagkakasaya namin ni Von, nakalimutan nya yung kotse nya sa loob ng UST.

potangena!

nasaraduhan kami ng gate.

eh tapos na rin kami maglaro tapos makikisabay kami nila Joey, Jane at Dazha. so yun, galing sa P. Noval, tinakbo namin hanggang sa espanya gate, dun sa Engineering building. Tapos takbo pa rin kami hanggang sa likod ng library kasi dun nakapark yung kotse nya, so parang literal na inikot namin yung buong UST para lang makuha kotse ni Von. Tangena ang layo! Hinihingal na rin ako pagkarating ko dun sa car. Tapos nung nakasakay na kami, nagsindi kami ng yosi sa kotse. Nakalimutan ko na bawal pala magyosi sa loob ng UST. Eh si Von kasi nagsindi ng yosi eh! Hindi ko naalala na bawal pala magyosi. Ang galing eh no? Nagyosi kami kagad nung hingal na hingal na kami. Eh pano pa kaya ako makakapag-laro ng saker eh nagaaya pa si Ryan.

hehe.

so yun, pagkatapos nun naghatid-hatid na si Von sa amin tapos yun.

pagkarating ko bahay, nuod ako kagad ng cartoons. hahaha!
pero after kong magbihis shempre.

nakita ko pala si Elise dun sa UST. haha.

watsaaaaap.

birthday celebration ni James.
dun kami sa computer shop ni Ruskin.
nirent ni James para dun kami maglaro buong gabi

we can't actually smoke cigarettes there
but since James rented it and we're all friends with Rus,
we can now smoke inside the shop

wohoo!

dalawang floor yung shop ni Rus,
ang ganda dun
much much better than i imagined
and there we were
smoking our lungs out inside a room without an exhaust
our eyes were getting red

we all looked liked addicts when we finished
anyways, James ordered three or two cases of san mig light just for us
since James did not drink, and von and I

napilitan kami

kasi apat na box ng pizza in-order ni James
walang tubig dun, beer lang nakita namin
edi beer nalang ginawa naming panulak

forgive me lord for drinking the forsaken liquid made by the devil

pero okay rin.
hindi tulad ng dati na parang ang pait ng beer
sanay na kasi kami
parang tubig lang iniinom namin na may lasa.

we all played battlefield 2
tangena ang gulo at ang saya at the same time.

ayun.hanggang mga one na ng umaga kami naglaro at kumakain at umiinom
napatigil kami dahil nagsasara yung building kung san nakapwesto yung computer shop eh
nagrereklamo na yung guard dun.

medyo nabitin ako pero okay na rin na napatigil kami
i was getting dizzy from all the smoke circulating the room.

it was recycled cigarettes.

sumabog pa yung lighter na nilagay sa loob ng ashtray.
mga gago eh no?

while playing battlefield 2;
/me "Joma, sali ka na sa squad namin para may isang special forces samin!"

Joma: fuck the squad

/me "sumali kana kundi aatrasan kita..."

(joma was at the back of the buggy that I was driving and before Joma could say anything else)

/me put the buggy on reverse

-retardan killed an allied unit-
-dyoma is no more-

HA HA HA HA HA HA HA!!!!

recenty, we've been having alot of misunderstandings.

i don't know why.

it seems that all the trust that i had are all fading away

i know it would sound mushy and corny but i really miss being with her

it's not like we broke up or anything
she's always busy and i have alot of free time
the free time i have right now doesn't synchronize her availability

i feel like crap being so helpless finding a way
i always end up talking to myself in the end.
i don't want to get used to iti don't want to get used to not seing her
i love her so much and i would do anything just to make her happy


and sometimes it is still not enough


maybe i am not doing that much effort that i used to
i used to wait for her for twelve hours
now i get impatienti get worried to easily

and now that i'm suffering from "high blood"
i might over do it and end up on a hospital wing

i'm so God-damned pathetic why can't i do anything right nowadays?
what the fuck am i doing wrong?
my old self is creeping inside me again
maybe it's telling me something
but i still can't understand it.


i'll wait.

pahabol project

make a twenty-page autobiography of yourself.

natapos ko na yung akin. pero hanggang sixteen pages lang.

need not to put some stuff.

napapagod na ako eh.

ang haba kasi eh.

taena.

okay na siguro yun.

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that
So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away
Slight hopeIt dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...

my futile attemps in making a plan

kayo nalang mag-plan. kayo lang kasi yung mga nawawala eh.

hehe

/me nodds left to right

what the fuck?!?

lagi nalang na-uurong yung plano,

ano ba balak nyo?

alam ko na,

alis nalang tayo ng alis,

kahit kulang, okay na yun, basta may mapuntahan,

tapos alis nalang ulit the week after,

diba?!?

galing...





when the heck are you guys going to makeup your mind?